Dear reader,

How have you been doing?

I hope you’ve been staying safe and well during this tough time.

For me, generally I would say I am ok, but in some areas I feel like I lost myself, my passion and motivation to do more. Lockdown has changed my mindset in so many ways, some good and some bad, and it opened my eyes to life, how simple it really is but how much we like to complicate it and make smaller thing bigger than it really is. The quote ‘happiness is a choice’ that I’ve been hearing repeatedly for the past 5 or more years, I understand it now, I get it, and I agree with it to a point (because we can’t control everything that happens to us no matter how much we try). At the age of 23, I still have a lot of growing to do, so many dreams I want to turn reality, so many areas in life I was to explore and experience, and lockdown truly tough me there’s no better time than now, no more tomorrow or next year, now is the time.

Physical State

Before lockdown, I would go to the gym around 2-3 times a week for a bit of cardio and swimming. Once lockdown started, I tried a few home-workouts but that didn’t last for so long, I was immediately demotivated to exercise and that started a really bad habit of being lazy, procrastinating, and generally being inactive. This continued to grow the longer we stayed on lockdown, and here we are now, nearly four months in and I’ve never felt so much pain in my body.

You hear so many stories telling you to be active and healthy in your 20’s to avoid muscle, bone and joint issues in your 40’s/50’s/60’s, but here I am at 23 waking up nearly every morning with sore shoulders, back and sometime even thigh muscles, and I am so sick of it, but still very demotivated to workout or do something about it. The gyms around us have started reopening, but I still feel it’s too early to go somewhere crowded, especially using machines that many touch throughout the day, it’s just not worth it for me. I’ve tried going for walks, and some days it would work, but it’s not consistent as it’s been raining nearly every other day, if not daily here.

Weight, naturally my weight fluctuates throughout the year, I gain and lose a few pounds every now and then, but that is a natural healthy weight cycle, I usually try to stay in a certain weight margin however I personally don’t focus on weight more than focusing on the type of food I eat. Again, at the beginning of lockdown I fell into a bad habit of being lazy and eating unnecessarily. From baking too much to eating out of boredom, and just not being mindful of the amount of food I was eating in one sitting, it caused me to gain weight out of my usual weight margin, which made me feel even worse because some clothes did not fit me comfortably anymore. But I like to think I have a good relationship with food, I am good (up to a point) in controlling my temptations towards food, and I truly love food, I enjoy and appreciate the taste of food, including fresh healthy food. At the moment, after four months of being at home, I am finally happy with the amount of food that is being cooked at home, and the amount of food that I am currently eating in a day, along with the type of food I’m eating, but I still lack the motivation to workout and be more active, no matter how hard I try.

Mental State

I thank god for giving me the power to go through this without facing issues, thankfully I did not go through this alone, as newly weds, my husband and I are thankful for being able to spend time together, and this just allowed us to learn more about and from each other every day. On top of that, I have a strong and close relationship with god, and this lockdown made me build an even stronger relationship with god, learning and reading so much more without life’s natural distractions.

If you are suffering mentally in any way, minor or severe, please reach out to someone, here are a few links to mental help support in England:

Home State

I just have one statement for this category: ‘my house has never looked better!’

I, like many, have fallen into the TikTok trap, downloading this app has turned me into a compulsive shopper, buying things that I definitely don’t need in my house or life in general. However, I have to say that I did learn so many things on the app that I will probably make a separate post about in the near future to avoid a lengthy post today. In general, being at home for so long taught me how to take advantage of what I already have, how to reuse instead of waste, how to make full use of different products or items around the house, but most importantly, it taught me to look around myself and be grateful for what I have, and think to myself what can I do from home to help others in need right now, as well as how I could help improve our environment.

This concludes my post for today, let me know how you’ve been feeling during lockdown, down in the comments below, and how your lifestyle has changed since then?!

Stay tuned for more weekly blog posts, take care and stay safe!